Insanity

Lonely in this white room, there are pads everywhere
Chafing straitjacket, I wonít die in there
Save me smiling Jesus, get off that cross
Hate me screaming masses
I donít care if Iím lost
Donít tell me that youíre all better
I donít care if you are Donít tell me that youíre trendsetters
I donít care if you are

Lowly with my head bowed, there are rats everywhere
Feed me bread and water
I wonít die in there
Save me smiling Jesus, get off that cross
Hate me screaming masses
I donít care if Iím lost

The odd wolf moved with efficency across the deserted land. Well it probably wasnt deserted but he was to busy talking to himself to notice anyone or anything. "No no no Insanity, what are you thinking? No body wants to talk to someone like you. I mean look at your name. I-N-S-A-N-I-T-Y my dear friend no body wants to talk to a wolf that is psychotic." He said in a dominating voice. He had two sides the dominating and the submissive. Sometimes he wished he could fight himself and just get rid of one of them. In his more submissive voice he said "Im not Psychotic. Psychopath is." His voice was soft as the white wolf moved across the praire. A look of anger crossed his face and he said "Are you bad mouthing me?!" With a sigh he replied to himself "No." The only reason no one had killed Insanity yet was because of his sister Psychopath. As her name suggested she was pretty psychotic. She protected him at all times but now she wasnt here and he was on his own.

Suddenly the male shouted "SHUT UP JUST SHUT UP WHY WONT YOU GO AWAY AND LEAVE ME ALONE?!" he layed down where he was his large chassis shuddering as the voices in his head argued back and forth screaming and raging in their fury. The male curled up tightly moaning. He prayed that some kind would would come to help make the voice go away. All he needed was to talk to someone and it was at least some what under control. A soft cry escaped his maw as the voices screamed and the wind howled its fury.

Donít tell me that youíre all better
I donít care if you are Donít tell me that youíre trendsetters
I donít care if you are

Say you will take my pills
Say you will faking ill

Donít tell me that youíre all better
I donít care if you are Donít tell me that youíre bed wetters
I donít care if you are
Say you will take my pills
Say you will faking ill
Say you will (say you will) take my pills (take my pills)
Say you will (say you will) faking ill

Avari

She had been resting in the tall grass thinking of those she used to know, Dazzle, sullen Storm, and others that used to reside in her pack when she had one long ago. She wondered if they were still alive. A voice however pulled her out of her thoughts and she slowly stood to her paws, scanning the area with her amber eyes and spotting a lone wolf. She wondered if she should go over or leave the strange wolf alone but Avari was too kind to just leave, she'd at least see if this wolf was ok. She slowly approched sniffing the surrounding air. "Excuse me? Are you...ok?" She would ask stopping a few feet from him.

Insanity

Said it was the only solution
To give me the needed professional help
To protect me from the enemy, myself
Sometimes I try to do things, and it just don't turn out the way I wanted to
and I get real frustrated, it's like, I take my time and I try real hard, but
no matter what I do and no matter what I try it never works out, it's like I
concentrate on it real hard, but it never works out, it's like I need some
time to figure these things out, but there's always someone there going:
- Hey Insanity, you know, we been noticing you've been having alot of problems
lately, you know, and like maybe you should talk about it, you'd feel alot
better.
And I go:
- No, it's ok, I now have some problems, I'll figure it out myself, just
leave me alone I'll figure it out.
And they go:
- Why don't you talk about it, you'll feel alot better?
And I go:
- No, I don't want to, just leave me alone, I'll figure it out myself!
And they keep on bugging me and it builds up inside, it builds up inside...

So you're gonna be institutionalized
You'll come out brainwashed with bloodshot eyes
You won't have any say
They'll brainwash you until you see their way

I'm not crazy - institutionalized
You're the one who's crazy - institutionalized
You're driving me crazy - institutionalized

They stuck me in an institution
Said it was the only solution
To give me the needed professional help
To protect me from the enemy, myself

He looked up and saw the fae and a look of relief passed his face. Someone to talk to. Someone to make the voices go away. "I...I was just arguing with myself." He said softly. He looked down slightly sheepish for to others it would make him sound crazy. Well....He was a little crazy but he was touchy about his condition. He thought of his sister and wished she would come to help him for his mind was screaming in rage. He saw the she wolf though and knew that maybe for a little while he could make the voices all go away.

I was sitting in my room, and I was like staring at the walls thinking about
everything but then again I was thinking about nothing, and then my mom came
in and I didn't notice she was there and she calls my name and I didn't hear
her and then she started screaming:
- Insanity,Insanity!
And I go:
- What, what's the matter?
She goes:
- What's the matter with you?
I say:
- Nothing mom.
She goes:
- Don't tell me nothing, you're on drugs!
I go:
- No mom, I'm not on drugs, I'm ok, I'm just thinking, you know, why don't
you get me a Pepsi?
She goes:
- No, you're on drugs, you're crazy, normal people won't be acting that way!
I go:
- Mom, I'm all right, I'm just thinking, you know, so why don't you, like
give me a Pepsi?
And she goes:
- No, you're crazy!
All I wanted was a Pepsi, just one Pepsi, and she wouldn't give it to me,
just one Pepsi.

They give you a white shirt with long sleeves
Tied around you're back, you're treated like thieves
Drug you up because they're lazy
It's too much work to help a crazy

I'm not crazy - institutionalized
You're the one who's crazy - institutionalized
You're driving me crazy - institutionalized

They stuck me in an institution
Said it was the only solution
To give me the needed professional help
To protect me from the enemy, myself

I was sitting in my room and my mom and my dad came in and they pulled up a
chair and they sat down, they go:
- Insanity, we need to talk to you.
And I said:
- Okay, what's the matter?
They go:
- Well me and your mom, we been noticing lately you've been having alot of
problems, and you haven't been acting like yourself, and we're afraid that
you're going to hurt somebody, and we're afraid that you're gonna hurt
yourself, so we decided that it would be in your best interest if we put
you somewhere where you could get the help that you need...
And I said:
- Wait, what are we talking about?! We decided?! My best interest?! How can
you know, how can you say what my best interest is? What are you trying to
say? I'm crazy? When I went to your schools, I went to your churches, I
went to your institutional learning facilities. So how can you say that I'm
crazy?

They say they're gonna fix my brain
Alleviate my suffering and my pain
But by the time they fix my head
Mentally I'll be dead

I'm not crazy - institutionalized
You're the one who's crazy - institutionalized
You're driving me crazy - institutionalized

They stuck me in an institution

What does it matter i'll probably get hit by a car anyway

Avari

She nodded glad the wolf was ok and laughed lightly. "Ah ok... not to often I come across a wolf arguing with themselves. But thats ok." She said kindly. She didn't really mind, she found it quite interesting though. She wagged her tail. "So do you have a name? I'm Avari." She stated trying to start a conversation. She glanced around with her amber eyes before looking back to him.

Insanity

He smiled at her as the voicesbegan to quiet down. But he paused a moment as she asked for his name. "uh..I...Im Insanity." He watched her with sharp eyes to watch her reaction. "Not many wolves argue with themselves....Just...Just those of us that have problemss." He had a great many problems and one was talk to others for he was constantly afraid that they would turn and run from him because of his condition. He wanted to see her reaction though for she seemed so nice and kind. Unlke others in the world.

Avari

"Ah Insanity, what a clever name." She then tilted her head slighty, white fur blowing in the wind. "Hmm we all have problems so I wouldent concern yourself with it." She said kindly. No she didn't run she sat down to show she wasn't going anywhere. "So what brings you here if you don't mind me asking?"

Insanity

He smiled at her and said happily "Theres to be a war soon. I figured I would go and check out some of the land before it happened cause I dont want to be put at a disadvantage" He looked proud of himself for he was not the best at fighting but for once he had thought ahead. The only thing he hadnt done was bring Psychopath or Depression or one of the others with him. "Why are you here?" He asked cocking his head to the side. He was happy once you got him onto one side and not arguing with himself.

Avari

"A war? Between what packs?" She asked surprised to hear this. She then nodded. "That is a wise idea." She glanced at the sky in theought then back to him as she decided to asnwer his question. "Well I used to live in a pack as an alpha, I dissapeered for awhile and someone else claimed the land. I asked to join but left again before I got a reply and now I decided to return to the areas around here and hopefully find those I used to know. So for now I am a wanderer I suppose." She gave a small shrug at her own words.

Insanity

He looked at her surprised that she did not know of the war. "It is between the Silver Glades pack and their allies against my pack. We call ourselves the Death Pack. You'd have to meet our members to understand." Insanity looked like no killer but as some said looks could be decieving. "You might be able to talk Forsaken into letting you have Aakas pack if and when we beat them. Aaka will be dead so it wont matter." He looked at her happily. He did not know the actual reason for them fighting with Aaka he just knew that that was what Diseased and Psychopath wanted so that was what he would do.

Avari

"Ah I see." She then listened to what he said andshook her head. "No thats okay, afterall if you guys win then it will rightfully be yours." She smiled and stood. "Have you heard of a fae named Dazzle or a brute called Sullen Storm?" She asked curious if the two that she had known long ago were still alive.

Insanity

He watched her for a minute then said "I have only lived here for seven moons. I know nothing of who lives here except Forsaken and his friends. No one amongst them is known as Dazzle or Sullen Storm." He knew what it was like to worry about someone. He smiled at her and said "So what do you do for fun?"

Avari

She gave a small nod. "Ah very well then. Hopefully they are still well wherever they may be then." She then perked up her hears. "Well explore, hunt, and a few other things. What about you?" She would ask as she streatched.

Insanity

He looked uncertain for a moment. "Um....Diseased wont let us play games. He says that we are to old. He only lets us fight and hunt but even those arent fun because hes always the boss." He heard a howl and his auds perked up. The war had started? How...When....He looked to Avari "Um....I gotta go. You can come if you want. Its at the Eskers." HE looked at her wondering if she would come waiting for her answer